Hi all,
Apologies in advance for the moan - just feel like I need to get it all out as trying to come across as the excited bride all the time is quite draining!
It's our wedding in three weeks (!) and even though all the big stuff is sorted, I just feel more and more stressed out and nervous with each day that passes! We've been engaged for 8 months and it feels like all the planning, dieting, exercising and decision after decision is finally starting to take its toll. I feel really short-tempered and just feel like snapping at people who ask me to do things, including at work! My job is quite stressful as well and I went through a tough promotion process halfway through our engagement. I'm just really looking forward to having my life back where there isn't all this pressure and I can fully relax at home without feeling guilty about procrastinating, or not eating the right thing, or not making it to the gym for the 4th time that week. I'm not sleeping well either :-(
I'm nervous about the day as well - I absolutely want to marry my OH and can't wait to be his wife, but I've realised I've created a big event where I'm the centre of attention among a big group of people (most of whom I don't know). I get nervous and jittery when it's my turn to introduce myself at a meeting FFS, imagine what I'll be like on the big day. Everyone keeps asking if I'm excited, and while I do get waves of excitement sometimes, I'm mostly just feeling very very tired and very bored. I'm an introvert, so I get quite drained when I don't have regular spells of spending time on my own so I think the fact that I haven't had any real alone time combined with knowing that I won't get any until after the honeymoon is stressing me out as well.
I feel like I should be much happier and more excited - I can't say too much to OH as his family are so generously paying for what has turned out to be quite a big and pricey wedding.
This may also sound weird, but I'm stressing out about having groups of people form my different areas of life in one place - work friends, mum, best friends, uni friends etc. I'm very different around different groups of people and keep different areas of my life very distinct from each other, so not knowing how I should 'be' on the day as they'll all be there at the same time is a worry as well.
There - now I feel better! I'm hoping that once it gets to the day, I'll just relinquish my control freakery and relax into it!
Sorry again about the big whinge!
