I am hoping you can kindly share some advice, as I am struggling post wedding.
Our wedding went very well, for which we are very grateful.
However, I was meant to have 4 bridesmaids and ended up with 2 due to pregnancies amongst my friends. I hoped they would still come, but of course understood if they couldn't. However, some time before our wedding one misunderstood me and became incredibly angry and stopped talking to me. The morning of our wedding was not as you see in photos, bridesmaids all around. It was quiet, though I was grateful for those there for me and us.
After the angry incident I thought about it everyday, most of the time and felt awful. This person misunderstood me and then stopped talking to me after 25 years of friendship, right before our wedding. Since returning home from honeymoon I do not feel happy where we live and feel lonely with the huge change to our friendship group. I feel I would like to leave where we live and start again. I am trying to think of new work I could do and where we could go to live that would be a place we could build the community that would be good for us both. My partner is open to moving, though we bought a house last year, he would be open to renting it.
I would be extremely grateful if anyone could share any thoughts or advice. I am struggling to think through this and it is greatly effecting my work (I work remotely, alone, which doesn't help at all.) I am so exhausted and down at the end of the day, that I cannot think of meeting anyone new.
I would really appreciate words/ advice from anyone.
Thank you so much.