Hey ladies,
Just wondered whether anyone else takes/has been on Cerazette (the "mini-pill") and if so, how well it worked for you? I took it for about 6 weeks and started getting violent thoughts, so I stopped taking it went back to the..erm..barrier option. It's OK, but as anyone knows it's not cheap and they can dampen the mood. Anyway, we decided that that wasn't a long term option and I started back on Cerazette. I've been on it 14 months now and it's making me absolutely vulgar!
At first it was just the thoughts, now I'm getting really random cycles and the occasional whitehead/blackhead (I normally get patches of redness on my chin, but no heads). I'm not talking tiny pimples either, I'm talking about bumps typically about 3mm wide. They're sore, look gross and needless to say they really kill my confidence. the thoughts have come back though I've realised they are not violent urges, they are violent thoughts that I might flip and fulfill them, but the idea repulses me and I get caught in a turmoil between the thought of "what if I did it?" and "why on earth would I think about doing that?", along with the obvious "no way! I love (said person) too much to do that!" I have never had violent thoughts to this extent before and they are really getting me down. I've become a hermit because I feel constantly paranoid. Every ache, niggle or thought becomes of grave concern. I eat like a horse (normally 3 desserts in a day plus at least 9-12 rich tea biscuits over a day) and will normally still feel hungry. My sleep pattern is shot and I'm really not fairing well with the symptoms and planning a wedding. I go one of two extremes, either lazy, can't be bothered, don't want to try, not impressed by anything, not sure I want to get married etc to overjoyed, overly emotional, planning ten milliion wedding things in a day and talking nothing but weddings. Before anyone suggests I don't want to get married, the one thought I have come to realise is that deep down I do want to get married and when I think about a life without H2B I don't want that. While being on Cerazette I've been constantly emotional over our relationship, even when there is nothing wrong! I think it scares H2B a bit because when I was on the combined pill I was super excited and hardly ever cried, on the mini-pill I'm in tears maybe 6-7 times a day! On the plus side though, I've managed to avoid any nippers- probably cos my other half won't go near me at times in case I start blubbering or try and bite his head off!
I'm thinking about telling H2B that I want to stop Cerazette now. I finished my last strip yesterday before starting my next 3 months supply. Everytime I look at them sat in my drawer I just want to stop taking them. I don't want to be breaking down over every tiny thing on our wedding and don't want to ruin our honeymoon because these pills have made me the absolute shedevil. I also want to take these few final weeks to try and tone up a bit before the big day arrives but I'm finding on Cerazette there is no drive and weight just doesn't move!
Any other experiences to share?
Thanks for reading
MrsStobe13 xx