Not very happy.
getting married in september, all planning is done, most of bills are paid, just venue left.
wanted to get married abroad, just immediate family, nothing fancy, very informal and relaxed. family created about cost and majority declined to come (we were only going to cyprus, my lot arnt exactly hard up, they would rather just buy tellys, clothes etc...) somehow we have ended up having wedding over here. venue is best of a bad bunch really as budget is next to nothing. guest list has gone up to 40 people (i know still not loads) and all the extra expense of flowers, cake etc i have tried to keep down by doing most of myself. dress and accessesories have all been done on the cheap and the only expense is our honeymoon which is for a safari as we have always wanted to go, and its costing more than our whole wedding. what was meant to be a nice combined wedding honeymoon costing us about £5k has led to this thing that i am not happy about now costing us about 12k. families arnt contributing, we have had to take loans out to pay for it (which i didnt want to do) and for some reason am just really down in the dumps about it.
feel having a wedding that i dont really want. have told h2b how i feel but never really get anything out of him. sick of everyone saying "oh it will be lovely on the day"...which im sure it will, but oh i dont know.
seen a few pics of people i know having hen do's and their weddings were absolutly beautiful and amazing. it probably is jealousy but it upsets me because i know their mums and dads have contributed alot if not all and well, i have never had a penny out of my mum and dad and h2b parents are too involved in spoiling their recent grandchild. their dresses and hair and make up look amazing. i struggle doing hair and make up on a normal day, so know that on my wedding day im not going to look wow. cant afford to pay someone to do it for me.
dad not walking me down isle - we hardly talk and are civil for my mums sake. he also isnt making a speech. issues arising with h2b brothers girlfriend who his family all want there but i dont - also because of our table plan would mean she would end up on top table. she has hardly made an effort with me and ive met her twice. i have 3 brothers and their girlfs arnt coming so trying to be fair.
am i being totally unreasonable and bar-humbug? i have good days and bad days about it all - today seems to be a very very bad day.
