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Its been almost 3 years since I had an accident at work and was told I couldnt do my career anymore,a chef. I have had the depression, and the tears. But I still feel like I am grieving a part of me and my life. I also still miss that career, it was my whole life and I was a bit of a workaholic too. I can now, just about watch catering/kitchen/cookery programmes. Although even these make me a little sad. I am no longer depressed and have been in my new career about a year now which is great. But I can't see if I'l ever be as good or happy in this career as my old one. I also find it hard now, to see what I am good at. I still find myself wanting to do things from my old career too and it hurts to know I cant do them. My church is wanting to run a coffee shop and I would love to cook for that alas I can't. I still feel torn between the old me and the new me.
About a week ago, I went to the doctors and asked if I could be referred to the mental health team. I explained a little of what I was feeling to him and he referred me. But now, I am starting to worry.
How does counselling work? How will just talking stop me feeling this way. What if the counsellor thinks I am over-reacting? What if the counsellor doesn't know how to help-will I get referred elsewhere? Will I come out of the counselling on a weekly basis more upset than I went in? What if I need more sessions than the 6 I am allowed?
