Im sat here in floods of tears and feel i cant carry on much longer like this. Everything is going wrong and has been for a while, my relationship is terrible and have so much happening between one thing and another ive hit rock bottom.
My relationship hit the rocks a while ago we have both had so much to deal with he nearly lost his job and as a result of that we nearly lost our home. the intimate side of things has been dead completley for over a year and when i finally plucked up the courage on Sunday night to talk to him about it he said he had more things on his mind than that at the moment, yes he have financial worries but he thinks he is the only one going through it he forgets im going through it too. I dont even get a kiss or cuddle without having to ask for one and even then its a half hearted attempt from him, i was told im being selfish wanting to try to sort things when he has more to worry him.
My dad is ill at the moment and my mums answer to it is to hit the bottle leaving me to deal with it all, at the moment my dad is refusing to give up work and is away most of the week leaving my mum to drink herself into a state. I have to go and do all the housework for her and get the shopping in cos she sits on her arse all week drinking and doesnt do a thing she leaves it all to me. My dad is starting treatment in a couple of weeks and i know that its gonna be left to me to see to everything.
I went to the doc months ago and was put on anti-depressants after two months of not feeling better she doubled the dose which still didnt do anything so i stopped taking them. I went to the doc the other day as i cant keep food down and have horrendous headaches and she said i was stressed and just had to calm down. Im getting no support from anywhere and this afternoon im sat here thinking i cant take this anymore.
Im sorry for rambling on but had to get things off my chest.