Last night I sat down with some wedding magazines thinking it would inspire me back into planning after a bit of a lull, but all it did was make me feel down!
My wedding is Feb 2011, I only just got my invites and started sending them out, have booked Venue and Registrar, half-confirmed Caterer but thats it and I feel a bit overwhelmed with it all to be honest. By the time H2B came home I was in a right state - a total blubbering mess.
I've found a dress I really want but I can't find one anywhere near close enough to go and try one as I don't drive and can't afford trainfare (cant afford to eat most of the time let alone anything else!) and also it has a 12 week delivery so its cutting it a bit fine.
I'm just convinced that my wedding won't be anything like as pretty or as elegant as others, and that like everything else in my life, no matter how hard I try and how much effort and work I put in, it will be a huge disappointment and people won't enjoy it.
Sorry for the self-pitying rant - just feeling really meh. ☹️
