As the title suggests I don’t really know what’s wrong with me. Its just been a very blah week.
I’m stressed because of wedding nonsense which in turn is causing my night terrors to come back with a vengeance. They started off about one a week now they are every night. So I’m tired because of this and its making me grumpy.
Every thing about the wedding seems to be magnified, the smallest little problem or annoyance is just making me feel horrendous and I don’t seem to be dealing with things or shrugging them off like I normally would. An example is OH friend putting on the RSVP no fish for his gf as she didn’t like it. Normally I’d be like yeah that’s a bit rude end of story wouldn’t think of it again but I’ve really let it bother me to the point I’m irrational about it and its making me angry. There is no reason why I don’t just know if its because I’m tired.
I’ve cried like a million times this week again just because of small stupid things that normally wouldn’t warrant an action. Poor OH doesn’t know what to do with me and I can’t explain what’s wrong.
I got my period today for the first time in months as I’ve got the coil so I wasn’t expecting it and wasn’t prepared at all. Lunch break was spent running to the shops for tampons (TMI sorry). Its really heavy and I’ve majorly painful cramps and to top it off I feel really queasy since I’ve taken pain killers and actually feel like I might be sick.
I’ve got an appointment at the doctors on Tuesday to discuss my night terrors but at this rate I can see me ending up in floods of tears and him thinking I’m having some sort of breakdown.
I just don’t feel like me at the moment. Someone needs to give me a good shake and tell me to get it together
