Hiya all lovely brides and grooms to be..
My wedding to my partner of TEN YEARS is due next saturday, 18th May 2013.... yes its a week away.. and I have done EVERYTHING myself.
Partner is not bothered, doesnt care and doesnt want to know..
hes got progressively worse and now causing arguements between us every week about the impending day.. and even though paying to register the intention f marriage all miles back in August 2012, and going to test the veue food near xmas and booking the whole thing. He is very miser-ish when it comes to money.. (he always has been and for ten years we have always done everything split 50/50 cos it works for us)
He hasnt paid a penny only £35 to the registrar back then and that was it.. my father and me have paid the rest.
Now I dunno What to do with him cos he wants to cancel the whole thing- saying its a waste of time money blah blah.. why do we need a piece of paper blah blah.. surely I have been waitng long enough to marry the man I love and the father to OUR 4 year old Autistic Son!!
yet 9 weeks before the marriage date he seems t be showing signs of cold feet and I have to hide everything wedding , to do with marriage or celebrration or he gets the face on and stomps around all night.
I think he feels out of cntrol? I used to ask his opinion on everything since planning it officially as he asked me back on our 9th year anniversary last year,, and WHy did he do that when I asked him and reminded him of it? ... because he thought it was what I wanted- to get engaged.. and i said I didnt mean I wanted to rush into things and agreed with him t set the date for a year later- the tenth year of us being together.. NEXT WEEK!!
Now ... I am in bits.. I had to GUESS his shirt and suit size.. on the rounds of the sizes he wears and measuring his necks on his work shirts! .. and I know his shoe Size.. but I havent a clue on his ring size cos he doesnt wear jewellery EVER.. never has done.. I dont even suspect he will wear a wedding ring after! so I am not going mad.. I am buying an Argentium silver ring from argos £30!!
I have dne most things on a budget and am very creative and made most myslef. my dress off ebay dress makers in china plus all the bridesmaids dresses have been here for months and months. I have the venue paid, photographer, cars, reception, meals (which I borrowed £1300 from partners ccard that he wants back!) .. and everything else..
and he wantes to friggin cancel???
I told him under no circumstanes apart from cheatiing n me the week before we are due to marry- would I cancel all this now. He doesnt care.. the invites I sent out on his friends side didnt reply.. he probably texted them saying dont bother I wont be there.. or smething.. and the invites I GAVE him to hand out at his work weks ago.. I found last night in the under seats of his car !!
I have argued with him and I am sick of this. He has put me in such a bad positiion and took the fun out of the Big Day every girl is supposed to look forward to for me now. ..and when I ask just what is his problem? he says of course he loves me and our son, and of course he wants us still living under one roof.. but he cannot give me a good reason for the wanting to cancel crapp .. but now in the arguements I think he is weary of ow some women wipe the ex hubby clean and take them for everything they have got.. I am nt like that and I have assured him of this. But he doesnt take my word for it and in temper the other night (we were fighting again cos he sa the wedding suit hire documents i stupidly left out in the kitchen by accident) that I better get myself t a solicitor then t srt out a PRE NUP.
Well It hurts to think that he is thinking we will eventually split like this.. even though we have had so long together and been through so much.. but fine, if that what he wants its fine. I have a house in my name, I rent it out.. he has a house we both moved into 8 years ago.. only in his name. I dont pay towards his mortgage cos I am not helping him buy a house without my name being on it and that was agreed years back.. but I do pay half of every other bill except the Sky tv bill and ALL the food shopping bill.
My point is.. I have more equity and assets in this life than he does so why wuld I want his? I have a very sucessfull business I run from home and I am an independant woman. I have to be cos the type of guy he is I couldnt ever get him to support me.. even when I fell pregnant out of the blue 5 years ago.. he wasnt happy with that either and put this same stress on me to cancel that going ahead.. threatening me with split if I went ahead cos at 38 he wasnt ready to be a dad??? Having a laugh the guy was! so I tood my ground, refused abortion and our son is now the only thing he seems to care about- took him 7 weeks after the birt to bond properly with him but he is the best dad I always knew he would and ould be. .. So whats his problem with marriage I ask? its not like anything changes for him, me, I get the same name as my sn as I am sick and tired f explaining wh I am everytime I call up about him for one thing r another- and thats quite alot when you have an autistic toddler.. lol.. plus I would feel complete and more secure naturally.. the very next day we go back to our normal lives, we live tgether and split everything 50/50 jut as we have been doing pre marriage..
I just dont get him and I am at my whits end. there is no family of his coming apart from his mum that lives half hour away from us and I have always got on with.. shes excited but cant understand her son when I confide in her and I begged her not t meton anything wedding when she speaks to him cos it causes rows between us. .. his father passed away sudeely 6 years ago.. and he only has one alive relative- a brther, who lives in the USA and he isnt bothering. His family are not close at all.. doesnt seem like they ever were. Its strange yes, but thats just the way they are.
But now he doesnt have any friends coming either.
He hasnt had a stagg do.. I have been out with my girlies twice on lead up.. not today tonight though. I've done it now.
My sister asks me why am I doing it- why am I wanting to marry a man like this?? and I am questioning this myself.. But we love eachother- I know he would never cheat on me, hes just not like that- and I wont him.. I dont want our son to come from a broken home cos I am from the same and witness to a messy divrce and its not a nice thing. But I cannot cancel!! I will look like a right idiot.. so I told him.. I will be there.. on the day.. and if he jilts me at the alter or sabotages the day in anyway.. I will leave, with our sne and that will be us, ended. I have never been so sure of something in my life (apart from Having our by with or without his help) and I am not willing to stay with a man that is willing to publicly humiliate me infront of all my friends and family.
Watch this space.. ... I dunno where I am getting the enthusiams to carry on with final details..
I am so sorry this is so long- I am just at my whits end and sick of burdening my sister or anyone else with this pathetic issue.. I just wicsh he would grow up and stop being a child.
Can I do a UK LAw Binding Pre Nup online DIY stylie?
the way I am feeling I wanna d it, print it off and give it to him just so I can prove to him I am not after his money nor am I out t take him to the cleaners!
JEEZ!
and breathe......
thanks for reading if you got this far x