? Just wanted to offload and have a bit of a moan really. No-one else I speak to seems to get why I'm feeling so blah about the wedding at the moment.
It's all starting to get on top of me a little bit; all the organising (which I don't enjoy at the best of times) and things going wrong and people letting us down. I am going to take an official 6 week break...COMPLETE break from wedding planning. I AM GOING ON STRIKE! ?
After the wedding car debacle on Friday, which is thankfully all sorted now, I got a lovely text from my sister saying that I didn't have to pay anything for my hen weekend and it was all taken care of, which was unexpected and lovely (think she felt a bit guilty about letting us down with the cars- although that wasn't really her fault- but I'm not going to complain!! ?) This means that I now have money in the budget to cover the wedding car costs, so won't be out of pocket.
So, was feeling all positive on Friday.
On Saturday, I received four messages from friends saying that they can't make the hen weekend (on top of the other 2 who had already said they couldn't come, plus a couple who I've not heard a peep from, despite repeatedly chasing). Now I don't know what to do; we'd originally booked 2 accommodations (each sleeps 8) and I invited 17 people- all who initially said they'd be up for coming...now we're looking at 10 people in total, so I don't know whether to cancel one of the bookings, or make everyone pay more, which means that they might not want / be able to come......*sigh* It's also not a very nice feeling thinking that your friends don't really like you enough to come on your hen weekend! ? (God, I really AM feeling sorry for myself today!!)
Icing on the cake- on Sunday, my brother told me that the lead singer in his band might not be able to do the wedding because 'he's thinking about going to Bestival that weekend'... apparently my OH already knew, but he had been 'too scared' to tell me because he knew that the band was the second most important thing to me (after getting married!) on the day. You know what? Instead of getting cross, I just sighed and said 'fair enough'. I'm getting used to people letting me down now.
We've already been let down by one band (who also went and booked themselves Bestival tickets, despite promising to play the wedding). My bro has a lot of contacts and thinks he'll be able to sort it...but I almost don't care now. I just feel really kind of numb about the whole thing. Which is why I think I need a break.
I know this sounds daft. People have real, significant problems and I've read about them on here- partners cheating, wedding plans being cancelled because of serious illness, etc. And I know I'm just having a little whinge and probably sound like a complete brat. But I need to get it off my chest somewhere! I'm really good at dealing with important, serious stuff- it's all the little cr*p that gets on top of me!
And please, nobody start with the old 'well, if you used professionals, blah blah blah' because I am totally NOT in the mood. We CAN'T AFFORD to use professionals (that's the whole point) and were relying on the goodwill and promises of help from family / friends to make the day special and unique.
I'm starting to wish we were just b*ggering off on our own and doing it, like we originally planned!! ☹️
