This is rather self indulgent but I feel I need to write it out and have a little thread to be honest in in the hope if I am bad it will shame me, so feel free to ignore. I weigh 20lbs more than I did a year ago (though it was 16lbs yesterday so think I might purchase new scales ?)
I am sick to death of all my clothes being too tight and living big clothes to hide in. I am fed up of looking at very recent photos and feeling mortified, sick and unhappy with how I look. I feel sad to look at photos of me a year ago and remember how overweight I felt and now be much heavier and realise I looked alright back then.
So today I am going back to the gym. I am going to try my very best to only eat when hungry and stop before I feel really full. I am not just going to eat food because it is there.
Although I have gone up at least one dress size I will not hide away over Christmas feeling fat and frumpy but will go out and have a nice time and if I smile and feel happy noone else will notice I've put on so much weight, right?
Hmmmph there, my "diet" hasn't started but my more sensible lifestyle has.
