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Kazmerelda
Beginner August 2006

Is it normal to feel like this? Ex related..

Kazmerelda, 27 January, 2009 at 11:37 Posted on Off Topic Posts 0 4

I can't really talk to my real life friends about this...in some ways I feel totally stupid so feel free to send me some slaps.

I found out this weekend my ex who I was with for 5-6 years before my H, just got married. I speak to him here and there, last time I spoke to him was a few months ago properly and got a new year text. I was elated to hear he got married, last time I spoke to him he implied that he wasn't with anyone, and was lonely. I took this with a pinch of salt (he could be manipulative when I was with him). He also rang me 2 Christmasses ago drunkenly and all I caught was that he still loved me(he was truly hammered). I pretended I hadn't heard what he said as tbh I am married and although I will always love him in some way it was just not meant to be.

Part of me being happy he got married was I don't have to feel guilty anymore about being happy with H (H was his friend, and was a complex situation). However well meaning people are now telling me he was engaged when that Christmas call was made, he still thinks of me etc etc. I am ignoring all of it, I have moved on. But I feel so angry and hurt and still not free of it all.

I have removed his email, phone number, ignoring all the well meanings (should have done this long ago, I know I know)...but I found myself crying, I just booed my head off. He was the love of my life, but we tore each other apart it was wrong on so many levels. I just about broke free from him, I have no regrets and my H is the person I am meant to be with no doubts in my head (I left my ex to be with him).

Is this normal? It feels like when we split up all over again but on a smaller scale. Or am I just weird ?

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Latest activity by Kazmerelda, 27 January, 2009 at 14:25
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    Beginner August 2012
    Kellfi ·
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    I haven't been through it myself, but it must be a strange feeling. Have a ?

    You know that you are doing the right thing ?

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  • MrsD
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    I suspect in situations like this, nothing is "normal" and you've just got to deal with it as best you can. Deleting his numbers, email, etc, sounds like a good start and will probably be quite cathartic. I don't think you're weird but you've probably just been holding onto these emotions for a long time and its coming out in one big release.

    So long as you are happy now and believe that you made the right choice, I think it'll get better over time and without the distractions of drunken calls and emails it should be a bit easier as well. Let yourself have a cry, its a perfectly reasonable reaction, then move on.

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  • Kazmerelda
    Beginner August 2006
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    Thanks ladies for your replies....

    I know what you mean about "normal" MrsD, I guess it just needs some time. I should have cut him out of my life a long time ago, I just had alot of residual guilt over being with my H which I should not have.

    Thanks for the hug Kellfi, I am trying to hold alot of it in because I don;t want my H to think it is anything he has done.

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  • Scottishterrier
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    My ex(father of my daughter) and I seperated almost 3 years ago and although i never regret my decission to end things there i still get a lump in my throat when i see him happily settled down with his new girlfriend. I think what hurts me though is that he is giving her everything he couldn't give me and the reason i left him..I think its normal to still hurt a little when an ex moves on no matter how happy we are in our own lifes x

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  • Kazmerelda
    Beginner August 2006
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    I think this is partly it ST, it's that when I split with him he offered me the world which was too little too late.

    Thanks for your support on this, I can't really talk to anyone in RL as they all never liked him so perhaps wouldn't understand my pain

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