what the *** am i going to do? The hospital rang me at 11-30pm to tell me that they had found her an hour before with the wires from the patientline headphones in a noose round her neck and trying to smother herself with her sheets ? she is now on 24 hour watch from them - having paper plates etc - i even had to bring her trainers home with me cos of the laces.
I didn't get to bed til 3am and hardly slept - i didn't go over last night cos they said not to - she was sedated - so me and H went over this morning with the baby.... said something to her and she ran and locked herself in the loo ?
she was ok[ish] afterwards - still thinks she is coming home tomorrow after the mental health team have seen her - fat chance of that tho - i can't handle it at the moment tbh
H is taking tomorrow off work so i can get to the councilling session - he only has about 2 days holiday left tho now - and we can't afford for him to be on unpaid leave......
he was in tears as we left the ward - which nearly finished me off - i haven't told my mum what has happened cos it will break her heart totally - i don't know how much more of this i can stand tbh.
thank you for letting me offload - this place is a lifesaver at the moment ?