I am so stressed now. In my head I really wanted my own 2 daughters to be bridesmaid, my 4 sons to be page boys and my best friend to be my MoH, and her little girl being flower girl. Now OH is saying he would like his godson to be page boy, he also has a little sister so to me it would be unfair to ask one without the other (even though OH isn't her godfather) so that means her being flower girl too. Then he said he would want his sister to be involved in the wedding, maybe being a bridesmaid...but I don't talk to his sister, not for any other reason than we don't know eachother. I see her now and then and nod hello but we've never been formally introduced or anything so I just kind of nod and go 'hiya' as I walk past and she either does the same or says nothing at all LOL Then he said he would like his Mum to be part of the day, feel involved. So I said well generally there isn't a role for MoG but how about taking her suit shopping with you and letting her help you choose? He said no because he doesn't want to do that with anyone other than his best man (he doesn't want me to see him in his suit before the day either which p****s me off a little bit but it's his choice) so I said well I suppose I could take her dress shopping with me and then show her the one I love and am thinking of getting. The thing is, we aren't close, we live 2 doors from eachother and rarely speak, she works long hours and so we don't cross paths that often. When we do we chat about general stuff for a little while then go about our business. I did say to him that her seeing me in my dress won't mean anything to her, I'm not her daughter and we aren't overly close so it would just be for the sake of finding her something to do. What's more, my own mum hasn't seen me in my dress - nobody has because I went on my own so I didn't have other people's opinions making me choose something I probably otherwise wouldn't so I would feel a bit bad that she had been part of something my own mum would probably want to.
I tried to make him see where I was coming from by asking him if my brother could be his best man - he of course said no as he doesn't know my brother (only met him once as he lives in London) and he has his own best friend being his best man which is absolutely fine by me but it was just to prove a point that people who play important roles in our wedding should be people that are important to us. If we knew and loved them as a couple it would be different but we don't. I am trying really hard not to throw a strop over it and try and accomdate what he wants so he doesn't feel bad towards his family and I don't feel bad towards him but now I am feeling miserable. On my wedding morning I want people around me that I love and want to spend time with laughing, reminiscing and probably crying like a t**t with lol I don't want randoms or strangers there.
Any advice? :/
I'd really like his Mum to feel involved too because she has brought him up by herself and he is her only son so I understand the importance but I think it should be about him not me, for her.