O/T. Great. Now I'm having panic attacks...

You poor thing. You need to leave! Do not worry about money(easier said then done I know ) your health is vital and you need to leave. Ring in school explain situation and thats it do not think about school or worry about it! Enjoy your time off and put yourself first and look after yourself.

xxx

I have them and they are horrid things, i find breathing into my closed hands helps (similar concept to breeathing into a brown paper bag) and tbh the wedding helps me keep things into perspective. they have some what diminished but i still get very nervous when i go out but im getting there. and you will to, oyu need the time to relax and destress a bit before you can start to try and combat them. take baby steps and deal with them at your own pace, dont be put off if you do really well one day and not so well the next as it does take time. big hugs ? xx

?everything is going to be fine?

It's scary without the security of a permanant job. I did agency work when I left my job due to a bullying boss and I was never out of work or any worse off moneywise and I felt so much happier. No amount of money is worth what you're going through so do whatever you need to do to ensure your health and happiness x

Thank you all for your replies and hugs.

Curly- the breathing into the hands sounds like something I will try and having the wedding to plan is something that is a positive that I focus on. But, like you say, baby steps.

BoroK- I think I remember you telling me about your boss before.

You are right Laura my health is the most important thing but I just can't seem to stop worrying; must try harder!

You health is the most important thing, mine got so bad i didnt leave the house for over a year at one point because i let it get out of hand. baby steps and you will get there ?

Leave, and sign up with agencies and ring them everyday until you get a job. The joys of an agency is that you can leave as soon as you get a new job, no (or very little) notice is required.

Your health is far more important than anything else - if you don't have your health, you really don't have anything.

Take a step back, try to relax a little when you are off and sort out your resignation. Also, I would recommend a little (or big) glass of wine if you are having trouble relaxing?!?!?

Mrs S you're right. I have already got application forms for agencies and so that ball is rolling.

Gillsy- I like your style.....wine it is! I only got 5 hours sleep last night because I was so wound up so a glass of red will knock me out!

Curly, I'm glad you're feeling better, a year is a long time to be inside.