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ruthy_wuthy
Beginner September 2009

O/T Hi (poss sens)

ruthy_wuthy, 7 December, 2008 at 18:15 Posted on Planning 0 34

I just thought I would pop by and say hello and let you all know that I'm doing ok....

I know I haven't been on here for weeks but after everything that happened I just felt that perhaps a wedding forum would not be the best place for me!

I'm really doing ok...I cry often (although not all the time...and it's getting less frequent) and I'm hurt and upset and I feel rejected and fat and ugly and so on.....but generally, I'm doing just fine. I'm grateful that the ex had the balls to tell me how he felt before it was too late. It was so hard for him, and in his words, it has been a lot harder than he ever imagined to deal with the consequences. I don't think badly of him, I don't hate him..I don't have any ill feeling towards him. It was my decision to walk because at that moment I believed I deserved more than an "I don't know if I want to marry you" sooooooo I left at that point and have lived in my new swanky pad since. I was lucky that my one of my best friends is a landlord and I'm also lucky that he had the BEST place available and he was happy for me to move in straight away without deposit etc... the place is still a bit bare but I'm slowly and surely adding pink things all over the place to make it all mine.

I have only spoken to the ex a couple of times, but it's very amicable. We have managed to resolve the house, finances, wedding stuff etc.. without a bad word said between us. I'm not angry at him for having doubts and who knows, in a however long down the line he may realise that it was just cold feet. But it's too late. I want to marry someone who will always be as sure of his feelings for me, as I will be of my feelings for him. Anything less than that I'm just not willing to accept. It is a bit harder because there was no big fight, no one else involved...nothing. But It's not down to me to rationalise why he felt that way, I just know that I respect him a hell of a lot more than I ever did for not leading me on and for being honest as soon as he felt there was something wrong. The worse thing I can think of is for him to have married me and in 15 years time turned round and told me that he married me for the wrong reasons and/or that he didn't love me.

I am honestly amazed that I have pulled myself together so well. I just figured that if I let myself get down...I'm not sure I'll be able to pick myself off the floor so I have to get on with things...my 'real-life' friends have been amazing...as have a fair few of the Hitched regulars who have always kept my spirits up. Who knows, maybe one day I'll be back on here to plan a wedding that may actually go ahead.

Miss you all very much.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Latest activity by debs1701, 12 December, 2008 at 14:35
  • Sherrie H
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    Ruth I am so glad to hear you are picking yourself up. Time will be a great healer believe me after a 23yr relationship & then a 5yr one with an 8 month marriage, I have been there.

    There are lots of new & exciting things ahead & I wish you all the luck & happiness in the world. Don't be a stranger here you have lots of friends. x

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  • Fenella Fudge
    Beginner June 2008
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    I'm glad you've posted and let us know how your getting on.

    You sound really positive though and think you were so brave to actually make the decision to not be messed around.

    Everything happens for a reason so keep your head held high - I have a good feeling about you ?

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  • L
    Beginner August 2010
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    Hi ruthy,

    is so nice to hear from you. glad your ok, you are so strong i really admire you.

    take care and hope your back on here soon letting us know your progress and how your doing

    lou x x

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  • teeheeyoucrazyguys!
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    Hello my lovely!!

    thanks for stopping by - we miss you too!!! I personally had no idea of the details but its wonderful to see you and thank you for sharing. Its great to hear how you are and you're new swanky pad sounds...well... like you've landed safely on your two feet there, glad to hear you're not wobbling on them, so to speak!

    not much else to add but have a hug and a silly face from me - to make you larf.

    wishing you all the love, luck and happiness in the world come 2009!!

    nona xx

    ETA oh spooky sherrie, I hadnt read your post and we wished for the same thing! Ruthys got it double now! x

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  • Beccy Sprout
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    Am really glad to hear you are doing ok considering the circumstances... you are one brave lady and you definitely seem in the correct frame of mind to deal with everything. Things can only get better, and trust me they will ?

    B x

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  • jen52637
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    Hi!

    I know you don't know me but I just wanted to say I think you're being amazing! Keep being so level headed about things and you will ride this storm (sorry for the cliche, I know they don't help but I couldn't think of another way to put it)!

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  • boogiebelle
    Beginner August 2009
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    Hi Ruthy.

    Good to hear from you. You really do seem positive and I think you are really brave for making such a hard decision.

    You've probably heard it hundreds of times already, but time really is a good healer. Keep your chin up and remember to keep popping on here from time to time - we are always here to cheer you up.

    xx

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  • The Sock Chicken
    Beginner August 2010
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    Hi Ruthywuthy,

    So pleased to hear you are doing ok. I have been in your situation except we were engaged without a wedding date so I can understand how low and rejected you feel. But a year after all that happened I met my now h2b and couldnt be happier. Even happier than the first time round which I didnt think was possible. In now see that it was all for the best. Like the others have said stay strong and we understand how hard it must be for you to come on here but we would love for you to keep in touch xx

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  • mummy
    Beginner March 2009
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    Hi Ruthy, am so glad you posted,and you sound remarkably level headed and strong. Good luck to you, and I really hope 2009 is a much better one for you, with all my heart.

    Lol Clare xxx

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  • lisaloulou
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    Hi Ruthy, REally glad you are doing ok. You sound very postive etc. Here's to 2009 xx

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  • moomin8804
    Beginner July 2009
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    It's so great that you're being so strong and positive! A new year will bring good things to you i'm sure! x

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  • Lynseys Designs
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    Hi honey,

    I'm really sorry I have been crap at emailing but you know I'm here for you. You have done so well to keep going the way you have and nice to see you popping on.

    Lxx

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  • Spring
    Beginner February 2008
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    RW glad your doing so well. You have been very brave and i hope you keep getting stronger and we see you back here very soon.

    Take care of yourself x

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  • Hark the Bangkok Angels Sing
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    I'm so glad you've come on here and let us know how you are. I can't begin to imagine how hard this must be on both of you, as I'm sure it would be easier to cope withg if he had done something wrong so that you could be angry. Instead it is just very sad.

    My heart was broken when my ex split up with me the day after my sister got married because he said he could never see us going that way. I never thought I'd get over it, but your heart does heal.

    You are incredibly strong and you are thinking clearly and rationally. Take care. x

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  • AliLindsey
    Beginner November 2009
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    Hi ruthy,

    so glad to hear from you.

    I'm really glad that you've managed to pick yourself up, and I'm absolutely certain that there are many happier days ahead of you,

    much love,

    Ali xxxx

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  • diamondsragirlsbestfriend!
    Beginner May 2008
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    Hello Ruthy - thank you for coming back on here and sharing with us. As others have said you sound extremely brave and strong in the way you are dealing with the situation, so keep hold of that as much as you can. You will come out of the other side and I honestly hope you can find some laughter and happiness in 2009.

    Cx

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  • curly
    Beginner June 2009
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    I'm glad you realise you deserve the best and not a compromise. Here's to 2009 and the new promise it brings. Take care x

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  • ashmegdj
    Beginner August 2009
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    Thanks for letting us know how you are Ruthy. You sound like you are doing amazingly well. Your new pad sounds great too.

    Take care of yourself and remember us on WP and pop by again when you're ready.

    Jo xx

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    ? for you ruthy. Remember you are still a part of Hitched and OT is always there for you if you need to have a vent or some support.?

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  • tahdah
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    Ruthy!!!

    So glad to hear that you're on the mend (albeit slowly), as you say at least he had the balls to do it sooner rather than later (unfortunately in my case ex did the 'too late').

    Your new home sounds fabby, lots of parties and get-togethers in the new year then.

    Big hugs for being lovely, lovely you ?

    xxx

    PS - if WP is too hard, then come over to OT ?

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    Ruth - so nice to hear from you.

    You sound incredibly strong all things considered.

    You seem to be doing ok which is great news and you're right not to accept anyone who is less that 100% commited to you.

    Thanks for coming back and saying hello

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  • ruthy_wuthy
    Beginner September 2009
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    Thank you for all the lovely comments and well wishes...they're very much appreciated!

    I am sure 2009 will bring good things for me. In a really cheesy way, I'm just really looking forward to indulging myself and treating myself to whatever I want. I've already had my hair down and since I've lost a stone and a half in weight, I'm concentrating all my efforts in getting lots of lovely new clothes.

    My friends have been amazing. They're giving up Valentine's to take me somewhere sunny and hot for a week to take my mind of things...and then also for a week in September when the wedding would have been... I really need to be distracted!

    Anyway..hopefully I'll be properly around soon. Thank you a million...really...you're all wonderful people.

    xxxxxxxxxxx

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    Hello

    I just wanted to say that I think you sound like you are doing brilliantly. And yes, of course it is hard, but hopefull you're friends are looking after you well.

    Thanks for letting us know how you are.

    Katie

    xx

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    Hey Ruthy,

    Good to hear from you and all I can do is echo everyone elses comments. You are a brave lady and I'm so pleased you are getting increasingly more confident.

    Don't be a stranger and have a wonderful Christmas and New Year with those who quite obviously think the world of you!

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  • Saracroft251
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    Ruthy - you are such a lovely lady- you are an example to us all

    I hope that you are enjoying your new <pink> flat (Pics?) and I hope you know that we all miss you x x x

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    Glad to hear you`re doing ok-you are really brave in what you did and its for all the right reasons. good luck with everything.

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  • AussieAngelxxx
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    Hello hun,

    I was just thinking about you today!!

    I am glad you are going okay and I think you are really amazing and strong...much more then I could ever be!

    I truly beleive that nothing that is meant for you will pass you by....so there is soooo much more out there waiting for you!!

    Lote of Love xxx

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    Hi Ruthy, Great to hear from you! xx

    Glad to hear you're doing OK, we're always around if you need us! x

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  • LouM
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    Get your ass over to OT. Sorry to hear your news. ?

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    When you put it like that...how could I say no?!! ?

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    Hi Ruthy - I just wanted to say thanks for letting us know how you are getting on. I've been thinking about you - it must be so hard for you at the moment. I'm very happy to hear that you sound so positive and that you have all your friends rallying round to look after you.

    Hopefully you won't be too much of a stranger and we can see you on OT?

    Take care of yourself and your fancy new pad. x

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  • bluewater winter wonderland
    Beginner August 2009
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    R_w, you are one brave and strong lady. i'm sorry you've been through this, but glad to hear you are still positive, and looking forward to 2009.

    x

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