Hi All,
I am sat at home feeling very sorry for myself, everything seems to be going worng and I don't know what to deal with first or how to deal with everything.
Basically, I have been promoted at work and have heaps of responsibility. When I sleep at night I dream of work. I have now come down with an awful fever and have been off work for 2 days - I am still logging on and things are manic ... my poor team are so stressed and I can do very little to help them. The more time passes the more I dread going back.
On top of this, my OH's Nan died at the weekend. We were by her bedside and I have never been through something like that before. My heart broke, not for me, but for my OH and his family. The service for his Nan is on Friday, and I HAVE to attend. Last week, his other Nan's sister died, who he was close to and her service is on Thursday, I was attending, but now, with being out of work for 2 days and needing Friday off I am not sure if I can go on Thursday, OH is fine with this but I feel terrible for not being there.
Before the deaths, OH and I were pretty stressed anyway, we are STILL waiting to hear about our house which we applied for over a year ago, each time we call they say next month. They are meant to be available from September and we should be hearing in the next couple of weeks. If we get the house it means moving an hour away, and if we don't it means this year we will be saving for a deposit on our own home and our wedding. We are also pretty stressed out about OH's work ... he hates his boss and it seems she hates him. He has a catch up with her today and I am dreading the outcome.
There is just so much going on and I am not coping very well. I am normally a strong cookie but I think this illness has really taken it out of me.
Enough of my ranting ...... what would you advise. I know I should be dealing with one thing at a time but I am not sure which one ?