Hi guys just need to air myself out so no need to reply!
I don't know if it is just that my wedding seems so far away and I'm being impatient but I just feel like changing everything about my wedding starting from scratch and sodding off somewhere to do it!
We are stressed about money and it just feels like were probably not going to make the budget. I really want to get married I would marry my gorgeous H2B in a field with white wellies (and "the dress" of course) I don't care I just feel like all the planning we have done so far is making sure everybody else is happy, is this what they want, would they like that! of course I want the guests to enjoy themselves but I think we have lost touch with the fact it is our day!
I know I want to get married but don't know if I want the choices I have chosen for the day anymore. I'm scared because we are on such a small budget it will be more chav- tastic than fantastic! I'm really thinking of going over our guest list and just having the people nearest and dearest at our wedding rather than inviting people because we don't want to offend them!
Were booked in at our local church for Th Oct 2010 at a cost of £500! (I've thought about a registry office wedding to cut costs it's not what I want but it's cheaper or maybe even Gretna green the website looks fab and your getting almost everything for £1200!!!) We have booked our venue at a cost of £100 (fantastic bargain as the place is fab inside and also the owner is doing me a great deal on decoration as she knows I am very low budget)
I have my dress I have £200 left to pay on that and am madly in love with it! (defiantly no changes there)
I bought the first set of bridesmaids dresses and now don't know if my sister is going to be a bridesmaid so that is them dresses wasted I bought another set of dresses for my MOH and BM but I don't like them anymore I don't even think I want the same colour scheme anymore (I can see a pattern emerging) My original line up was my MOH, my sister (BM), H2b's niece (FG) and our two son's as pageboys but because my sister is more than likely going to let me down I asked my friend to step in as I know she won't let me down.
I have my tiara and veil done, my uncle is piping for us and has offered to do the wedding cars also. My friend works with a lady who makes cakes and is doing mine (3-tier) £90 were still shopping around for a tog as The prices are way out of our range so fingers crossed we find something.
Plus every time I suggest or buy something for my wedding my mum says "save that for me for my wedding" (she is planning on getting married again 3RD time) but I just feel like shouting it's my wedding you've already done it twice give me my chance to bloody shine instead of making it about you aaaarrrrgggghhhhh!!!!
sorry guys I'll shut up now just feeling a bit poo, fed up, frustrated etc... and if you were brave enough to read all of this Thank you x