Don't really know where to begin with this post but here goes.
I used to be such a happy go lucky person, very silly, articulate, fun to be with, carefree, confident, outgoing, and generally didn't care what people thought of me (except close friends and family) - the other day my H asked me where that person had gone and it got me thinking.
To be honest I don't feel that I am any of those things anymore and it really upsets me. I have no motivation for life at all - I do a job that bores me because it pays well and we are planning to buy a house and have a family, I have no hobbies and despite H encouraging me I can't think of anything that I would actually like doing. I don't find expressing my opinions easy anymore, in fact I never speak without thinking, I am bored a lot and TBH feel quite bitter a lot of the time even though I can't put my finger on what exactly I am bitter about. The only times I feel like my old self is on the rare occasion that I have a little too much to drink and obviously that is no good thing! The only way I can sum it up is to say that I feel so repressed but I don't know how to go about fixing it. I am not usually a self-pitying sort of person and prefer to identify a problem and them solve it through action. I can't decide whether I just need to grow up and accept that responsibility and routine is just a part of getting older or whether I need to act to change the way I feel?.
Sorry for such a rambling post - does anyone understand how I feel? Feel the same? What should I do?
