I'm in a quandry. My boss (tight-knit little group, so a friend to a degree as well as my boss) is approaching the end of his battle with brain cancer. I've been told I can go along with another colleague to sit with him next week if I want. It's up to me, noone has asked me to go (ie his wife, who is also a colleague, won't be eg upset if I don't go or anything like that). My boss is now bedridden, unable to talk (for the most part), and in 2hrs has about 10mins where he's not asleep/is lucid.
I'm really unsure. Part of me doesn't want to go, I don't want to remember him like that, I want to remember him as the man he once was. But I'm also aware that it is pretty much certain that he's got weeks (if that) left and if I see him next week I will never see him again. The last time I saw him was at a party, he was tired but walking and talking (a bit) and although quiet he was still 'himself'.
I don't want to not go if I'm going to regret it as I won't get another chance, but as I say I'm not sure if I want to remember him like that. My grandma died when I was 11 of very long drawn-out cancer and at the end she was a withered dribbling shell of her former self, and when I look back I can only remember her like that, not as the lovely woman she was before that ?.
I really don't know what to do. It's totally my call, as I say noone will be bothered either way really (boss won't really know I'm there by the sounds of it, and his wife isn't expecting me to go or anything).
WWYD?
