Dear MIL
I apologise for writing you a letter when I should speak to you in person. This is a difficult situation and I wish there were an easy way to find a solution.
I am increasingly concerned that almost every time H or I speak to you or APthere appears to be a negative attitude. H and I want nothing more than to be friends with you both and, to be honest, don’t really understand what we have done wrong. I wish we could have an open discussion about it. However, as that doesn’t appear to be happening, and as you haven’t told us directly what is upsetting you, I am going to have to guess. I may well get it wrong; either way, if there is a problem if would be helpful if we could talk about it.
I think it’s worth saying that there is no agenda on our side. We very much want to maintain good relationships with everyone in the family. We are simply ridiculously busy – and, it has to be said, sometimes a little disorganised. However, it’s a vicious circle – the more criticism (and implied criticism) we receive, the more we avoid the calls. I do hope you can see how you might feel in that situation.
I know, for example, that H has lost his temper whilst on the phone to you on more than one occasion. That’s not acceptable, we both know that. However, he is frustrated about the situation and feels as though no-one is trying to see the situation from our side. We seem to be receiving a lot of flack for no good reason.
Firstly, I know that you AP and SIL tend to do similar things / shop in the same shops / have similar views about things and so on. I completely understand that, in fact, as a family, it’s perfectly understandable. However, I was brought up by my own parents and consequently it’s inevitable that some of our views and actions are different. I do research decisions, think about them and talk them over with H and we make decisions that we feel are appropriate for our family circumstances. There is no implied criticism of your way of doing things because we do things differently. It would be lovely if you could understand that we do our own thing because it is the most appropriate for us at that time.
A good example of this is raising Charlie. We don’t make decisions spuriously; everything is considered and researched. AP spoke to me recently about the fact you were all concerned about the fact that Charlie wasn’t yet potty trained. There are good reasons for this, having spoken to the Health Visitor and the GP, it’s not appropriate yet. To be honest I felt quite hurt. When we visited AP and Grandad we had a lovely day, and AP could see first hand why we couldn’t toilet train yet. However, she then called to warn us that Charlie could be seriously ill. Whilst I do appreciate that she has our best interests at heart, I do wish she’d understand that we’re not silly, we’re taking medical advice, we have Charlie’s best interests at heart and we’re acting on our doctor’s advice. Sometimes it just feels like you’re damned if you do and damned if you don’t. It’s also hurtful to feel as though we’re being discussed and disapproved of.
With regard to returning phone calls and so on – I don’t think you realise how busy we are. H leaves for work at 7am and often doesn’t get in until 7pm. Some nights he works at home until gone midnight. Similarly, now I have Generation One, Generation Nxt and the L job, I am rarely at home. I tend to leave around 8am and don’t get back until 6.15pm when I have picked up Charlie.
At 6.15pm, I have to make everyone’s dinner, help Jonathan with his homework, take him to football if necessary and put Charlie to bed. It’s usually 7.30pm at the earliest by the time H and I get to sit down and talk and eat dinner. Frequently we both work in the evening. We all need lots of sleep, so we go to bed at 10pm at the latest – often earlier. This means H and I get a couple of hours maximum together.
At weekends Jonathan has football on Saturday and Sunday – this means we are restricted to certain times and places to deliver and collect him. If it’s an away match, it can be up to an hour’s drive each way on top. In addition to this, we try to spend some quality time as a family but we also have the usual washing, ironing, cleaning, gardening and so on that everyone else has to do. Again, H and I are lucky to spend a couple of hours together when we’re not doing chores.
Our lifestyles mean that we don’t get lots of time to return calls or see people. It’s sad and it’s something we miss. I only get to speak to my Mum once a fortnight usually and, to be honest, the time I spend talking to her annoys H. If we spend, say, an hour calling in the evening, it means we’ll be lucky to spend an hour together.
It’s a juggling act and one we sometimes manage better than others. However, please don’t feel hurt or upset if we aren’t able to return your calls straight away, or even within 24 hours. I think sometimes you and AP forget that you are retired and are able to manage your lives in a different way.
Despite our lifestyles being busy, this is what we have chosen for ourselves. We both enjoy our careers and hope to be more successful in the future. H wants to be a Head teacher and I want my business to be successful. We have a happy relationship and the children are happy. It would be wonderful if you could understand how we feel about this – our priorities maybe different from yours, but I don’t see any reason why this should mean that we don’t get on.
I think the main reason for writing this letter is to communicate clearly that we love you both very much and we feel sad that there appears to be some sort of difficulty in our relationship. I hope you can see things from our point of view a little more clearly, and understand that there is no ulterior motive on our part. If we have done something to hurt you, I would be very grateful if you could tell us about it directly, so that we can resolve it and move on.
H doesn’t respond well to criticism, he just gets angry. We’re both happy to talk about this sensibly and I think it would be great to find a way to move past this. We’re both committed to improving things but, to be honest, you need to let us know how.
Take care of yourself and speak soon
Clairy
UPDATE -
Well, I've been to see them. TBH it was a bit tense, but I was all happy and got them chatting. I ignored comments such as "it's such a long time since I saw you that I can't remember whether you have sugar in your tea" and just acted like nothing was wrong.
I didn't talk directly about this issue as it was just me and the ILs. I think it would be better between just me and MIL. I also think H needs to speak to her, rather than me. So I decided to go, show there wasn't a problem on my side, and try to ignore any swipes. I'll talk to H about it tonight.
They did ask me about work, and they seemed genuinely surprised at what I was having to do and the places I was having to travel (like Leeds and Scunthorpe, whole other worlds to them ?)
I'm not going to send the letter, but it was helpful to articulate it (rather "Dear MIL, feck off, Clairy" ?). I am also grateful for all the suggestions here. TBH I haven't been able to see the wood for the trees because whenever anyone calls or has a go, a red mist desends ?
I REALLY don't want to fall out with her, I'd like us to get on. I just wish it were easier. A little respect on both parts would help. Reflecting on how I might do that first has been very helpful. Thank you.