Soz if this should be on weight loss, didn't post on there as its more mental issues than loss of weight. I wish it was loss of weight. I'm just so sick of putting my life on hold and never going out because of my weight. I always have these goals in my head like "by my birthday I will have lost x amount" and the truth is that I never loose any. In the past 4 years I've put nearly 2 stone on and the during that time the most I've lost is 8lbs which is just bloody pathetic.
What happens is I lose a bit, put a bit on, lose a bit more, lose a bit more, put it back on etc etc and so it goes and the more and more depressed I get. I do a very active job and that doesn't seem to have inpact on anything. I joined a gym (I hate 'structured' exercise) and went 6 days a week for 3 months and only lost 5lbs so I gave that up. I went pole dancing for 6 months hoping that I would tone up/lose weight and that didn't do anything so I've stopped going. I've started WW numerous times and got fed up and stopped doing it. Eveyry Monday (weigh in day) I have the best intentions and after a couple of days it goes out the window. I am on medicaiton for an under active thryoid and when that was diagnosed I had thought it was the answer to my problems as SIL lost 2 stone very quickly when she went on tablets but I've not lost any weight (and they assure me I am on correct dosage). I asked the doctor for weight loss pills and they wouldn't let me have them (my BMI isn't high enough) and I know you can buy them now but after speaking to hitchers they had awful side affects so wasn't keen on that route.
The ultimate thing was a couple of weeks ago I met my absolute heros and I knew I was going to 3 months in advance. You'd think that that would be the best motivation I could ever ever get but no, I couldn't even lose weight for that. I'm sure I'm not normal in the head? When I look in the mirror I don't think I look too bad but then when I see photos of myself I look enormous. I never realise I look that big till I see on a photograph. I'm just soo pissed off with myself, its not rocket science, I'm a reasonably intelligent person but I can't shift 2 stone?!?! I'm going to wake up one day and I'll be 60 and still saying I'm not going to go out/do XYZ till I have lost 2 stone. What can I do apart from have my jaw wired or stomach stapled (joke as I couldn't afford that anyway but to be honest I am feeling desparate enough).