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Tell me there's light at the end of the tunnel

reghitch, 1 October, 2009 at 19:43 Posted on Off Topic Posts 0 5

I don't really know where to start with this and I'm certainly ashamed to tell the full story. Let's start by saying that I may have ruined my marriage and threatened my children's financial stability and I can't blame anyone but myself except the fact that I have just been diagnosed with depression and possibly bipolar disorder.

I have just been put on an antidepressant and I have been referred to the local mental health team. I'm in a LOT of debt, both personal and business. I have an appointment tomorrow with the CAB to try to start and sort it all out.

I've been lying to everyone and it's got me in a complete mess. It's compulsive, I can't seem to stop myself.

My husband doesn't trust me one jot any more and doesn't know if he still loves me. We're 'separated' but still living in the same house, trying to keep things normal for the children till he figures out if he's staying or going.

I couldn't blame him if he did leave, he's got his faults but he didn't deserve what I did. But I don't know how I'd ever manage with 2 kids on my own. And right now I feel very alone. Now the lies have gone my protective armour has gone, I feel vulnerable and exposed. I really need a hug but my husband is hardly likely to give me one, my parents are away on holiday, I have no friends and I can't lean on my children because it isn't right.

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Latest activity by Peter, 2 October, 2009 at 21:56
  • Roobarb
    Beginner January 2007
    Roobarb ·
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    ? don't really know what to say but didn't want to R&R

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  • Luthien
    Beginner June 2007
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    There is light at the end of the tunnel - you've acknowledged what has been happening and you're getting help. Can you get to see your GP too?

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  • Maxi
    Beginner February 2008
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    Of course there's a light at the end of the tunnel ?

    You've done a brave thing in seeking help for your illness - that is a massive step.

    Likewise your appointment with the CAB tomorrow. I'm not pretending for a moment that things won't be difficult, but you have made that huge leap in facing the financial position and have make a great start in beginning to sort it out.

    I hope things work out for you x

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  • Purple Pixie
    Beginner July 2012
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    The good thing here is that everything is finally out in the open. I know you now feel vulnerable but it was the only way that things were going to be stopped from getting worse and now you'll be able to get some help.

    I know it's hard but be honest with everyone (family, mental health team, GP etc) about how you're feeling and what your biggest worries are. They will be able to support you and give you practical advice.

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  • hazel
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    It's out in the open now and that's the first step to sorting it out ?

    I know your parents are on holiday but ring them anyway - I'm sure they'd want to support you.

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  • Peter
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    One of the members of my family has this problem. If you want to talk away from an online forum, email me at *****.*******@********.***

    BiPolar is treatable and life can carry on alongside it with the right medication and support. Controlling the highs and lows can be done......believe me, my family member has.

    Peter

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