You do realise that what you're doing is putting such a huge terrible
strain on our marriage that right this moment in time, I want you to
leave. I also question whether this will ever settle down, or get back
to normal, or even if we can get back to being normal, or if it's just
too late.
I cannot do this any more. It's not fair on me, and it's certainly not
fair on M. Your pre-occupation with all of this has precluded us for
so long. We get bits of you, and nothing else. You say you need us,
but instead you are pushing us away more than ever in the pursuit of
your birth family and excluding everyone else that has ever cared about
you. Your emotions yo-yo from one day to the next and I never know where I am. I cannot continue to be your sounding board - a wife is not just there for you to dump your emotions on and nothing else.
Yes, this is probably kicking you when you are down, but what am I
supposed to do? Wait for you to be happy, and then say how I feel.
You said that you only want me to be honest with you, and so, there it
is - warts and all.
