Is it worth a read? Because I am really really struggling at the moment. There is so much going on with the CBT at the moment, so many challenges I am facing. We are covering my over eating as part of the CBT, I know it is a punishment mechanism but I can't fecking stop and I just want to cry! Why can't I just keep fecking control of myself. This weeks challenge is to just get up, showered, brush my hair and teeth every single day, how pathetic a challenge does that sound but it is a good example of how much I struggle with the absolute basics of looking after myself. I have managed this all week, I just can't get a handle on the eating at the same time.
I am so bored and lonely which I know doesn't help but I honestly cant see a way out of this due to various things, child one is at preschool 3 hours a morn so I have to be localish and child two sleeps at that time and life is horrid when she doesn't sleep, I also have very very little money which rules out most things. I would commit murder to join a gym but even if I could stump up the cash for the one with a creche I can't afford 3 x creche sessions a week for C.
I am so sorry for moaning on here, I just so want this but I just feel like I can't get there and I don't know how to rememdy this.
