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Scarlet Fifi La Voom, 31 March, 2009 at 23:24 Posted on Off Topic Posts 0 15

Well today and Saturday where the worse days.

Saturday I had to take my dogs to the rehoming centre in Stoke. I took a friend with me as H was more worried about geting his stuff up to Wakefield! It was very hard seeing them put into Kennels. I went into the kennel wit h them and just crumbled crying on the floor and was saying sorry to them over and over again, telling them that I loved them alot, and sorry that I had let them down, that I just wanted them to be happy in a new home and that I loved them so much. Their faces where shocked when I walked away to kind of say where the hell are you going. That picture of their faces are there very time I close my eyes and is going to haunt me for the rest of my life. I phoned the rescue centre today and they said that they are still ate the kennels and that they are ok and will let me know when they get re-homed.

Me and H agreed today that we would say goodbye today when I left him tonight, that we would treat it as a see you later, as a goodbye is so final and sad. We where standing in my front garden and was crying my eyes out and we kissed each other (not a snog!) and said see you later and I said I love you, but he knew I was going to say that, but he knew in what term I meant that in. I didnt watch him walk away as that would have been way to hard.

So he goes after work tomorrow and straight up to Wakefield and I dont think I will ever see him again and that really hurts.

I feel like I have lost so much, my H, dogs and my house. This stuff really hurts.

Sorry to ramble on but I think writting it down might help.

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Latest activity by Scarlet Fifi La Voom, 1 April, 2009 at 22:06
  • Maxi
    Beginner February 2008
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    I'm sorry you're hurting so much ?

    Hope the days to come become easier for you. You sound strong from your posts before on the subject, I hope you continue to be so.

    Thinking of you x

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  • Zo�
    Beginner July 2009
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    I'm sorry. Im sure it will be rather odd once he is actually gone.

    I hope things get better for you x

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  • catwoman
    Beginner July 2005
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    Your post's brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry you're going through all this. Life's a *** sometimes.

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  • claires
    Beginner July 2008
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    So sorry you are going through this. The hardest things have been done now though i guess, its time to be happy. The dogs will go to a lovely home, you have been so brave in that respect, and you will move on, in time. everyone is here for you, you know that xxx

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  • Ice Queen
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  • Buckley
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    It is so hard for you. I am sorry, I hope that in time it will bring you happiness. You only realise how strong you really are when life throws all kinds of crap at you.

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  • Consuela Banana Hammock
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    When you talked about saying goodbye to your dogs, you had me in tears. I'm so sorry Fifi that your new life and the challenges that you face ahead of you mean yoiu can't have them with you. ?

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  • monkey fingers
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    Big cuddles xx I hope things get better for you. Lots and lots of love x

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    Scarlet Fifi La Voom ·
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    Thanks for all the posts.

    I havent gone to work today, I am such a wreck but am just trying to sort out my room at my parents as it was such a mess, but I am getting there with it. Just need to sort our house as there is still so much to do, but I am going to give most of it away as I just cant be in that house anymore. Walking in there with no dogs and him is a stark reality of whats happened. Once the house is gone the better!

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  • sweet-cheeks
    Beginner June 2005
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    I have only seen your post by chance and don't know the history of whats happened but just wanted to send you a huge ?

    I had to give my dog to a rescue charity after having had him for 4 years. He was a rescue dog too and I honestly thought he would be with me forever but for no reason he 'went for' my 2 yr old daugher at the table so after that I couldn't trust him anymore plus we are expecting another baby in June. I know how hard it must have been for you to call the rescue centre and take your dogs there too - I was in floods of tears when I took him to his foster home. Its been 2 weeks now and its still hard to get used to having no dog. I just hope he knows I still love him but I have since learnt he has been re homed and its made such a diff in how I feel. Hopefully when you get the call from the rescue centre telling you your dogs have been re homed you will start to feel a little better.

    x

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    Well today has been hard. Have been around the house and wrote a big list of bits which will be going on Freecycle. I spoke to the letting agency and they might take all the stuff off my hands as they are trying to re-home 3 homeless lads who havent got anything. So at least I can get rid of it, and it will be going to a very good cause! She also said that because I am doing that she will ignore the 3 days rent we owe as we are doing them a favour which is just great!

    Am trying to be strong today, and have put a picture of one of the dogs Nina on my bedroom wall, and will sort out some more photos of both of them together plus Spencer on his own. I really do miss them dogs. But I have to keep reminding myself that I have done the kindess thing for them as the last few weeks at home where stressful and they started to feel it.

    Hope things get easier from here!

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  • Pickled Eggs
    Beginner August 2008
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    ? ? I hope things get better soon x

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  • Hungry Caterpillar
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    Sorry to hear about what you're going through - it must have been so tough saying goodbye to the dogs. Look after yourself - you sound like a strong lady.

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  • LizBjk
    Beginner May 2007
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    I hope things become easier for you soon. ?

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    Scarlet Fifi La Voom ·
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    Thanks again everyone.

    I am just going through different stages at the moment where I feel depressed and then I just feel angry with him for everything. But I know all this is for the best. I know that I could never have trusted hima again, and now looking back, I now relise how much of a mug I have been, and how babdly he has treated me over the years, and have just let him get away with it. I will never let anyone do this to me again, no way!

    I am just more upset about my dogs, but hopefully they should be able to find a new home, then at least I will feel a lot better.

    As for him, he told me today that he didnt sleep very well and that he feels depressed, but I am sorry, but this is what he wanted, so deal with it. I have myself to worry about for a change.

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