Apologies in advance that this is a bit of a depressing and ranty post, but I was just wondering if anyone was going through the same and if you had any advice.
We got engaged in October and although we haven't set a date we have both agreed we are likely to be getting married in 2016 to give us time to renovate our house. I have been trying not to talk about weddings all the time as every time I do my OH gets very sensitive and I think he sees it as stressful to even talk about. Also if we stick to 2016 the wedding is a long way off. But at the same time this is secretly all I want to talk about as I'm so happy and excited!
Over the Christmas period we spent some time at my OH's parents' house and whilst I haven't been talking weddings the whole time his family, who we rarely see as they live 200 miles away, were naturally asking about our wedding plans and the 'W' word did come up in conversation from time to time during our stay.
One evening we decided to go for drinks in a lovely new bar/restaurant by the sea and I casually asked to see their function room as my FMIL had her retirement do there recently and said it was really nice. My OH's sister was also curious as although they aren't officially engaged a wedding is on the cards for her and her partner. All we did was wander in as a family, admire the room, then left to walk home. I didn't put our name on a list, ask for a quote, ask to speak to the manager, anything formal at all!
My OH was really funny with me on the walk home from the bar and clearly did not want to discuss the wedding or anything related to it. I jokingly asked 'well if you aren't interested in discussing our wedding, why did you propose?' He then said 'because I thought you'd...' and trailed off. I then finished his sentence for him and said 'because you thought I'd shut up about getting married for a while?' Which he basically agreed with. As his family were with us I did not carry on this conversation and laughed it off but this has really upset me.
My OH knows how much marriage means to me, and I admit I was starting to apply a bit of pressure in the last year or so of our relationship to get engaged. He has told me numerous times during our relationship that he wants us to be married, and I have no doubts about his commitment to me as we have a mortgage, but I know he probably would have waited a few more years if it wasn't for me starting to get impatient. I know people shouldn't apply pressure to their partner to marry but we have been together over 6 years and this will increase to nearly 9 years by the time we marry so this is hardly rushing into things. His comments over Christmas have made me feel like he has basically just proposed to keep me quiet. I brought it up the following day when we were alone but he just laughed it off and said 'you know I love you.'
Has anyone else felt that they have to tiptoe round talking about their own wedding to their future husband?! Does anyone think I'm being unreasonable in getting upset over his comments and general lack of interest in the wedding? If anyone has got this far, any advice would be really appreciated :-)