2 relevant bits of background, we are doing to do a long charity bike ride at Easter. A few weeks ago he'd suggested going up to the start point on his motorbike and then coming back the route that we hope to take the bikes on. He'd said about going yesterday lunchtime but by the time we'd looked and double checked the routes etc, it was really too late to leave. He was in a bit of a funny mood and at first said about getting up early and going first thing in the morning, but then said 'dunno' when I asked him a few times what he was going to do. I have the implant fitted and suffer from constant but light bleeding.
Yesterday we had quite a snappy day at a few points but were ending the day sharing a bottle of wine. I went up to bed leaving him to turn the lights off and anticipating that (TMI) we would make love when he came up. He was trying to wake our son enough for him to have his medicine but couldn't so I got out of bed to do it. I'd leaked a bit on the bed sheet *blush*. He made a bit of a fuss and said about changing the sheet, I said leave it for the moment (thinking that we'd get it dirty in a few mins and change it afterwards). A few words were said so I went to the bathroom, cleaned myself up. He was lying in bed, on top of the covers. TBH, I felt embarrassed and a bit rejected. I can't help this bleeding. I do have a Drs appt on Monday to discuss it.
He had his arm over me (not exactly round me), I had my back to him, that's how we ususally sleep. After a few mins he turned over with his back to me so I waited a few seconds and turned over and told him I'd put the lube under his pillow (thinking I was trying to reignite things). He just reached under and went to pass it to me. I said I thought he might like to used it and his response was no, the moment's passed now and just put the bottle on his own side of the bed. I lay there facing him until I could hear him snoring lightly then I turned over and eventually went to sleep.
I sort of stirred this morning when he moved the duvet off my feet and went downstairs. This was about 10 to 6. I dozed lightly waiting for him to come back up. At 20 past 6 I rang his mobile (didn't want to get out of bed) to get him to come back upstairs as I though we could make up and have a nice quickie before he went as I presumed he got up early to go. His phone rang but I couldn't hear it downstairs. I immediately got a sick feeling in my tummy, looked out of the window and his bike has gone. No goodbye, nothing. He'll be gone for about 2-3 days (I did say it was a long bike ride!).
I've left a message on his phone saying "I can't believe you've just gone and didn't even say goodbye".
I can see typing this out that there are places I could have behaved differently last night but I'm stunned that he thinks it's ok just to go off like this. I'm not sure how to handle this. We've had problems in the past, are both very stressed at the moment with other (some related, some not related) things but I can see this getting blown into something huge and I usually manage to end up being at fault somehow.
