I've done it again. I've wasted an entire weekend doing nothing. I don't mean that I've had a nice relaxing weekend, I mean that I've lay in bed, ignoring the piles of studying needing done, and now I'm majorly stressed out about how I'm going to be prepared for a lesson which I need to deliver on Tuesday afternoon.
Every so often, I think that I'm getting better, but then I just go under again. I'm so sick of feeling like this. I know it must sound like I am so lazy, but I honestly can't find the energy to do anything. I am so angry with myself, and so sick of fucking everything up, all the bloody time.
I'm so worried about how I'm going o complete this course if I don't get my act together, and we have invested so much in me doing this. I feel like such a failure.