Hen party disaster

Hi everyone
I just need some advice I was supposed to go for 2 nights but cut it short to 1 night whilst I was there. I’ve just got over covid and had been feeling ill the past week with tight chest and stuffy head. My hen party was from the Friday night and I wasn’t feeling great still but didn’t want to ruin the weekend or let anyone down as so much effort went into the weekend. My friend who planned the weekend tested positive last weekend and wasn’t going to be able to make it and another friend dropped out also. Anyway before I got picked up I was worrying about how I didn’t feel well once I got to the party house all my girls were there Prosecco on arrival the drinks were flowing and we had such a good night with games music singing and I was put to bed at 12 after having a few to many drinks!

On the Saturday I got ready but my chest was feeling so so tight and I was getting more anxious and maybe the alcohol didn’t help but I couldn’t relax at all. We went to sit down at a lovely restaurant for afternoon tea but I just couldn’t handle being there my anxiety got the better of me and I had to leave. We tried to go somewhere else for some food but I just wanted to go back to the house so we did. My friends then told me that I was having my makeup done by someone and heading for a night out on the town. I was then told that my friend who planned the hen do that she was now negative from covid and was coming down to surprise me but I just couldn’t help feeling like I didn’t want to go out. My friend said she wasn’t prepared to come down unless I was going to go out but I just couldn’t face it my chest was making me anxious and I just wanted to be at the house. I’m the end she didn’t come down. 4 of the other friends went home as they were leaving anyway and old come for the one night so there was me and 3 others. In the end I just said let’s go home I couldnt relax got our stuff together and on the way home I had a full blown panic attack that I’ve never had before and went to A&E I’ve never gone to A&E before but I was shaking shivering feeling faint and my chest was hurting so bad.
Turns out I had inflamed ribs from covid which was causing the chest heaviness.
My friend who planned the hen was angry that I ended my hen do the way I did. She said that she’s disappointed as she did so much planning and made so much effort and I’ve basically ruined it all all because I was to hungover. I tried to explain that it wasn’t the hangover I was up and out on the Saturday at the afternoon tea place but my anxiety got the better of me and I got myself in an anxious state. I spoke to her the next morning on the phone and she just wasn’t happy. She said she didn’t have anything more to say to me.
I have been so upset ever since so mad at myself for letting my anxiety get the better of me and ruining my only hen do and now I can’t eat or sleep and making my self ill. I feel like this is going to ruin my lead up to the wedding and now my friends are going to think bad of me and that I’m an ungrateful cow basically.
I’ve apologised and feel like I don’t know what else to do 😞