i can’t look at my photos - i hate how i look

Have you told your husband how you are feeling?

This is your second post on this topic in a matter of days. I can't stress enough that this level of distress over your photos is not normal - please get yourself some help. It's one thing to think 'oh, my hair looked terrible in that picture' or 'I wish I'd had the dress taken in a bit more' (although you actually look lovely in your photos, so you don't even need to be thinking that anyway), but to talk about hating yourself and to cut yourself off from people over it is a level of distress that no one should be experiencing.

There is no shame in admitting that you need help. Please - if you don't want to talk to your GP, then at least ring one of the excellent support lines that are available. You really don't need to suffer like this. (And I can promise you that in 10 years time, you will be looking back at your photos and thinking how stunning you looked!)