I just want my bampa back.

Ah, that's so sad. poor you. I opened this thread because my daughter aged 2 calls her grandpa 'bampa' so it really struck a chord with me.

sometimes grief overtakes you when you least expect it.

hope this isn't an annoying thing to say, but try and treasure the memories you do have. I didn't know one of my grandpas and the other one died when I was 9 and I never really got to know him properly. I have one photo of him with me as a baby and when I took it out of a frame recently, it had stuck to the glass and ripped and I cried my eyes out. It's been 27 years since he died, so it just shows that missing those you love never disappears completely.

It's my grannie I really miss, my mum's mum. she died when I was 16 and I still cry about it sometimes.

big hug to you.

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It must be extra difficult as well coming up to Christmas, when family is central to most of our celebrations.

A hug to all of us who are missing loved ones.

? I wish there was something useful I could say. Look after yourself ?

Thank you for your replies, I really appreciate it. I don't know what happened last night. One minute I was sitting here, the next I just couldn't stop crying. I was very overcome by emotion and felt quite angry too. I feel so much better for it too (if that makes sense?). ?