10 things we dont know about you....

I was just thinking, I've had inspiration from others and I think I could now do a much more interesting and slightly less depressing list!

This is really interesting. I don't think my 10 will be!

1. I was very unhappy as a child due to bullying at home and school

2. I wet the bed until I was 13

3. I am a desperate people pleaser and want everyone to like me

4. I have an eating problem- I overeat and could be 3 stone smaller if I didn't but I'm greedy

5. I've been into No.10 loads of times for work purposes

6. I go into a mortuary on a regular basis, and sometimes have to lay out bodies for viewing

7. I am horribly squeamish and once fainted during a breast examination seminar (but funnily enough am not squeamish at all about number 6)

8. I have a small hard bump in my mouth which has always been there and I prod it with my tongue to make it hurt

9. I am in debt and I lose sleep worrying about how to pay it all back

10. In my first marriage I was a very heavy cannabis smoker. I haven't touched the stuff for years and kind of miss it in a way

After reading all 16 pages of this I had to add my own.

1. I have very low self confidence even on here which is why I have Hitched open every day but very rarely post anything.

2. I miss my dad terribly and spent nearly two hours in tears on my wedding day because he wouldn't be there. He had been dead 14 years at that point.

3. I haven't spent a night in the same bed as my husband for nearly 4monthsand I don't know why. I just can't bring myself to go there.

4. I would love to disappear from this life completely but don't want to leave my mum alone.

5. I think I am depressed but am to scared to admit it to anyone.

6. H and I both have decent paid jobs but still have no money at the end of the month and never buy luxuries. This is due to debt we incurred from our ex partners

7. I hate H's family

8. I feel selfish for typing these things and feeling so bad about myself when some of you have major battles to deal with.

9. I can't say no when people ask me for help,but when I ask I get ignored

10. ..............

Fatgirl you sound so unhappy, please go and see your GP, write it down then you dont have to say it out loud ?

Fatgirl, please go and talk to your GP - there are many options available that can help. When I was at my lowest I went to see my GP and they sent me to a counsellor. It really did help in that I started to understand why I felt certain ways about things and that in turn helped me to be a little gentler with myself and not always beat myself up. It is a scary thought to think you might have depression - being badged as 'suffering from depression' was my main concern when I saw my GP. But the first step towards feeling lighter is recognising that you are low. I'm so sorry to read that life feels so hard for you right now, but I promise that it won't always feel that way ?

You should post more here too - the community as a whole will benefit from your input, it really is a case of the more the merrier, even if you think it won't. You will benefit too, as cheesy as it sounds, it really does help to talk and get involved.

It has been so interesting to read all the - and makes me feel lucky in some ways. I've been putting off my ten mainly because I think I fly mainly under the radar on here, but it has made me think a lot, so here goes :

1. I HATE pink. I don't have anything pink, and even my small daughter never wears pink.

2. I am slowly starting to wear colours other than black....though they are mainly gren and red now!

3. I married the first man I ever kissed. I still adore him, but do occasionally wonder whether I missed out on anything!

4. I snogged my gay best mate - in front of my fiance!

5. I dropped out of my degree in order to move back home to said fiance - and always denied that that was the reason.

6. If I was the kind of person to have regrets, I would regret number 5, but i do beleive that life is too short!

7. I can turn my feet backwards - almost 180 degrees to where they should be.

8. I can wiggle my nostrils- hard to describe, but I don't know anyone else who can do it the same!

9. I desparately want another child (or maybe more!) but am terrified of many related things - the struggle to get pg I had first time, another c-section, being a terrible mum, not coping with more, etc, etc.

10. I really want a new job. I don't enjoy what I do, but I have no idea what I want to do, or how to find out!

Thank you Zoe and Luthien for your kind words.

I think maybe after writing these things down I ought to seek help, thank you for the encouragement

Hugs all round for the posts that warrant it.

My 10

1) I have fallen out with my sister and doubt we'll ever speak to each other again. I ought to be more gutted about it, but i am too angry. I expect the next time i will see her will be at our father's funeral - but hopefully that's a long time away - after that, i suppose there'll be nothing to bind us - we used to be really really close.

2) I am useless at my job.

3) I am a rotten wife.

4) I am spectacularly out of my depth on a number of fronts.

5) i REALLY miss drugs.

6) if i didn't have to go out and work, and face the world, and give good front, i could probably quite happily never leave the house again.

7) I am horribly judgemental and such a hypocrite.

8) The girl i was isn't the woman i became at all.

9) i am so lazy i can't be bothered to write all 10!!

Fatgirl, you do sound desperately unhappy. But you don't have to stay that way

As others have said, please make an appointment to see your GP

See your post as the start of things getting better for you

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Maybe we should have a new thread where we all try to think of something we can do to change or improve how we feel about one of the 10 points we have made. It might feel less of a mountain to climb knowing that almost all of us have something that's not great in our lives - even if it's that we can't do our make-up.

? to all that need them

Ok here goes….

1. I am terrible at sticking to things… three OU courses and not completed one of them!
2. I am very good at my job but do have a bit of a habit of surfing the internet at work
3. I really do want to do my degree but can seem to motivate myself….
4. I am very lazy! See above…..
5. I love baking.. it makes me happy when people love my cakes ..
6. I only passed my driving test at age 27 ( I’m 31 now)
7. I am terrified of something awful happening to my husband or daughter…
8. I used to have top secret government clearance
9. I love every single James Bond film ever made and really can’t understand how some people don’t enjoy them..
10. I look at hitched too much and know I don’t contribute enough to the forum.

1. I was bullied in senior school because my boobs seemed to grow overnight and everyone thought I stuffed my bra with tissue - I therefore spent the next 5 years of school having "tissue" yelled at me whereever I went

2. I didn't go to the doctors last year when I had quite severe depression as I thought they'd take my children from me

3. My house is an absolute mess and I'm embarrassed to have visitors.

4. I wish I liked vegetables

5. I hated the colour pink as a child but now as an adult I love it.

6. I'm 5ft 2 and hate being so short

7. My husband is going to Afghanistan in April and I'm really scared

8. I am never 100% happy with how my hair look.

9. I seem to be a very forgettable person on the forums I go on

10. I cant watch The Shining on my own.

You're not invisible AliDaDas! I always remember you when I see you come up.

This thread has made me weep a little bit. I can identify with so many of the secret fears and worries. I want to cuddle you all. I think you're all amazing and funny and smart and real.

xx

You're not forgettable alidadas, you're one of the people i 'know' and trust

Thank you both, that really means a lot to me

Im a bit late to join...never mind...

1. im a paediatric nurse

2. ive been divorced/ separted for 4 years this year

3. im scared to have a relationship (emotional not a physical fear)

4. sometimes i think i need bromide to calm the horniness!!!!!

5. i can make my tounge into the shape of a shamrock

6. im not keen on animals

7. i will never be thin as have no will power at all

8. im loyal to the core

9. im on the anti smoking tablets....4days till stop altogether

10. im afraid i will forget the memories my daughter and i have made together

big hugs to everyone xxx

I've thought about these and changed my mind a lot about them, but here goes...

1) i'm left handed

2) my drink was spiked on my 18th birthday. by my then boyfriend. it was one of the most terrifying nights of my life.

3) i'm scared of moths. to the point where i'm a little sick in my mouth when i see one.

4) i screwed up the final year of my degree, i still passed but it's only now that i've realised that it doesn't really matter.

5) i used to hate my mum. i now tolerate her.

6) i used to play the clarinet but spent the last year of lessons just shooting the breeze with the teacher and occasionally playing the clarinet. i hated exams but didn't want my parents to know.

7) i passed my driving test on the third attempt.

8) i'm a very windy individual but never parp in front of people other than my H. he gets the full effect.

9) we're trying for a baby but i'm terrified that we can't have one because i'm a horrible person. this is sort of tied into why i feel the way i do in number 5).

10) one of the Queen's butlers tried to get me to go back to his apartment in holyrood palace for a party etc one night. i turned him down because i had to go to london the next day but i was GUTTED as i did quite fancy him and i was so curious about it all. my then flatmate went - she was friends with the butlers - and had a great night.

that's it. also, i didn't know if there was any point writing this because i don't think anyone will read it. but i thought i would join in anyway.

I read it Teenybash. I'm also very windy ?

This is such an interesting thread to read. Thanks for inventing it Eric.

Teenybash - I passed my test third time too - I think we make the best drivers ?

Aw, thanks shagalizard. i am glad i'm not the only windy one.?

e.t.a. - thanks luthien.

Ooooh - me too! I just didn't know how to explain it ?

Fatgirl, I am glad you feel you might be able to see your GP now. Please keep posting on here, there are so many of us that feel so bad about ourselves, this is a great place for support.

Im really surprised that some people think this way, most of you dont come across like that at all ?

AliDaDas, I know and remember you, you're not a forgettable person to me ?

Fatgirl, I hope you can talk to your GP, remember hitched is a fantastic place for support

Teenybash, I've read your reply

I think I'm getting soft in my old age, I feel very privileged to be part of such an amazing community

1. I spend loads of money on clothes and makeup, as I was a square ugly child who looked like a boy and wore second-hand clothes

2. I know a fair bit about antiques and collectables

3. I have the exact same name as another Hitcher's great grandmother ?

4. I was married to a TV news presenter (hi honey?)

5. I'm now with a (prog) rockstar

6. I'm not in the slightest bit broody but can't work out if that's due to my life sitch or if I'm just not the motherly type

7. I am also put off having babies as my mum had me at 36 (which I am now), and died of breast cancer at 52, probably due to giving birth 'late' in life

8. I want an Austin A35, a car from the 50s which looks like a Mini crossed with a Morris Minor and is cuuuuuute

9. I have a girlie crush on Tina Hobley and have to buy OK or Hello whenever she's in it

10. Last time I posted on a thread like this (Confessions), it changed my life overnight. Ouch. Hope I'm not making the same mistake this time...!

1. I am incredibly shy and struggle making (and then keeping) friends

2. I hate making presentations or speaking in public (one of the main fears at my wedding)

3. 80% of the women in my mums side of the family are BRCA 2 carriers yet I cant bring myself to get tested

4. One of my cousins is 'Ann Summers' - Jaqueline Gold

5. Her father and his brother own Birmingham City FC though I have only met them all twice (my uncles and my grans funerals)

6. I have an interview at Nottingham uni for a PhD at the end of the month and this will be my 3rd attempt (I was accepted at Sussex after my degree but only got a 2:2 not a 2:1, I started one at Brighton after my MSc but withdrew after 18 months)

7. I am a scuba diver but still cant jump into a swimming pool, I have achieved divemaster status but have let it lapse the last 2 years as I was getting bored of dragging people round the bottom of swimming pools

8. I am married to a cyclist with 6 bikes who frequently drags me out on my bike and yet I struggle taking my hands of the handlebars

9. I had dislocated hips from birth, yet it wasnt discovered till I was almost 5 and I then spent over 10 years in and out of hospital trying to get it sorted... It still isnt and is now giving me problems

10. Im not sure on my thoughts on having children, I never wanted any but now am not so sure..

Westy - I qualified in 1995. It was a struggle for the first 5 years and I eventually went in-house as I got fed up of the rubbish pay for criminal work. I now have a fab job as General Counsel for a firm that I love. Don't give up - you will get there. I can honestly say that qualifying as a barrister changed my life for the better and I am, as you should be, enormously proud of it.

x

10 things?

1. I was actually born in Chelsea, London.

2. My favourite film ever is Dirty Dancing

3. My favourite food is Curry

4. I'am fluent in Spanish

5. I would love to live in Australia

6. My sister owns a bar in Spain and is forever trying to persuade me to go over

7. I'am scared of Spiders, Bats and Rats

8. My Dad used to work for a film company and he had to go and pick up Sean Connery from the Airport, on the way back Sean needed to use the toilet, so came into our house and had coffee with my parents and us! ( I might add i was around 7/8 at this time, and couldnt understand a word he said!!)

9. I wanted to be a forensic detective, or work in a funeral parlour when i was younger, i also wanted to study criminology and am currently looking at doing an OU course.

10. I have size 5 feet.

1. I am obsessed with watching darts

2. I smoke and drink far too much, I sometimes think about having a drink through the day and have to stop myself, for that reason, I am going to stop buying alchohol

3. I really really really want to have a baby, I don't fancy the pregnancy part that much though, I have a feeling that I am going to have problems or it is going to take me ages and ages and I will be punished for being bad when I was younger

4. I think that my sister is my mum and dads favourite, she is so much better than me at everything. I am my nana's though ?

5. I am about the laziest person that I know and could have done so much better in life

6. I don't agree with a lot of things on Hitched, but can't be bothered to argue/debate.

7. I sometimes feel resentful about H's family, they seem to care more about his son than him and that makes me sad for him

8. I hate snow and all the updates on FB annoy me ? H is driving a wagon and I panic until I see him home safely

9. I am scared about going away for a long weekend to Majorca for a hen night, I have never been on a girls holiday before and I am 33 this year

10. I would quite happily not work (trhat must go back to number 5)

This is such a cool thread!

1. I'm not at all sure how to use this new Hitched so hoping this goes to everyone and not just Kellfi!

2. I started a business a year or so ago that is really successful but I still don't believe I am worthy of the credit it keeps receiving

3. I don't think I'm a very good wife or mum

4. I am 35 and mid way through the menopause, I say its all ok and I am so grateful for the two children I have but when everyones asleep I cry because I know I won't have anymore

5. I love love love to watch rubbish like Laguna beach and the Hills!

6. I'm mad on learning and am part way through a degree with no intentions of stopping once I get it!

7. I love baking, sewing and creating stuff even though I'm not very good

8. I was a mad party animal and when I said I was getting married no-one believed me as I was such a commitment phobe and was more interested in drinking, smoking and partying!

9. I am on our local radio as part of a chat show

10. I only learnt to cook two years ago and my whole business is based around cooking!!!

1. the man who did our decking worked on Ground Force
2. i imagine horrible things have happened to H if I can't get hold of him.
3. my mom had twins and died of breast cancer, no history of either is in our family.
4. i was in the Boots magazine with my mom & sister.
5. my daddy is a broad blackcountry poet and entertainer, i can't understand him when he performs.
6. dwight york sent me a drink over and it was brandy. blugh.
7. i have been on a flyer for a club
8. my sister had a cat called Toaster.
9. i had my wedding canceled by a hitched nut job.
10. i met me h a week after i was royally dumped by my ex, a few months before my wedding. I know I would marry h before the date had passed for my other wedding. (hussy icon needed!)

1. I'm auntie to six nieces and nephews, ranging in age from 21 years to 11 months, and there's another nephew on the way.
2. I support Leeds Utd.
3. I have a hyperactive nervous system.
4. I'm painfully shy, just like my Dad. Sadly, I don't have his knack of covering it with a display of confidence.
5. I gave notice for my job last Wednesday and don't yet have another one to go to.
6. I play bass guitar and have gigged at some prominent venues in London.
7. Although I live in London, I was born and raised in Yorkshire. I plan on moving back there this summer.
8. I'm arachnaphobic.
9. My Mum wanted to call me Jacqueline, but Dad liked Melanie better. If I'd been a boy, I would have been Russell.
10. I have green eyes, which I get from my maternal grandfather. Both my parents have blue eyes, which led my school Biology teacher to tell me I was the milkman's!

I thought I was the only one this happened to. I actually am a bit of a PITA as I am always calling MrH up and demanding to know where he is. Its not possesive wife syndrome- but with all the stress he is under at the moment I have this massive fear he will harm himself (god, I can;t believe I'm admitting that)