20 and I understand I will never have a girlfriend.?

I have just come to the conclusion earlier this week that I will most likely never have a girlfriend. Why? I'm 20 years old, in college and I have done nothing with a girl. However, this is not frightening, this is liberating. Why have I given up on the idea so early? You see, no girl has ever been interested in me. I haven't received one sign of affection from a girl, while all of my other friends have. I am the only virgin left in my group of friends.

As I said before, this concept is liberating. I am planning on working and travel ling the world right out of the gate of college, so I definitely wouldn't have time for a girlfriend. I used to be so torn up by this but not anymore. Its like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. My sexual desire has gone way, way down to the point where I am beginning to see females as asexual beings. This is good for my disposition as it allows me to see things with a level head and no longer feel left out. I stopped masturbating about a month ago and I don't really miss it. My attention is now turned to other pursuits, such as capital accumulation, purchasing a house, and investing in a comfortable future. I have told my parents that I will most likely never marry or have children and they seemed shocked and/or disappointed considering that I am their only child.

I may have failed evolutionarily, as our entire purpose is to procreate and spread our genes. I know I am physically unattractive, I admit it. I am tall and not fat, though and people say I have chiseled features but I still see myself as unattractive. Oh well. Life is no longer about evolution. Technology has intervened. I feel that nature has weeded me out of the gene pool for good reason. Not only do my unattractive looks need not be spread but I also have a medical condition. It's not really debilitating and it probably won't be until I'm past 50 or so. Even then, I would have to tell my partner and I'm sure she would look at me in a different light or leave considering that is not what she signed up for. I'd rather not take that risk of being ashamed of myself once again.

We can't get everything we want, I've learned that already. We must dust off and keep moving - as life waits for no man. This is just another one of those things I won't get to experience and its ok.

My question I wanted to ask: is this normal, to feel this way, to feel comfortable not having a girlfriend, being alone forever? If it isn't, I may schedule a meeting with my therapist.