Hi
Am sat in bed with laptop as i've been poorly for couple of days and all this time not working is making me think a lot bout the wedding plans. I'm so excited to be gettign married but the thought of othe rpeople beign there and me having to walk past them and stand in front of them all is freaking me out slightly!! All i had over christmas was 'not long now' and 'i bet your so excited' and i'm so looking forward to it - event of the year' etc from family and friends and i think the pressure got to me a bit.
We've spent just over a year planning everthing but how do i know it will all come together the way i want it to?? How do i know the table clothes, chair covers, centre pieces will look good together and our dresses and the suits match and the music and readings we've chosen will suit the mood and .......... oh.......
we've only had about half of the rsvps which worries me - even tho i know half of those missing are from h2bs family andi know they are coming as they have all booked rooms at the hotel. And we have only invited really close friends to keep numbers down and i know the majority of them are coming. (only 2 can't come as they are on holiday). But i'm still having silly dreams about turning up and everyone has forgotten so its just me and h2b and our parents.
And to top it off we are having our engagement shoot a week on sunday in the hotle grounds - good chance to see how our photographer works and wheres good for pics but i'm so unphotogenic and stiff in front of a camera - and i have no idea what to wear!!!
Sorry for my mini rant - just needed to release in a place that might understand a little. H2b just tells me to stop being daft lol
sorry x