I don't even know why I'm writing this, I haven't been on for ages as nan has been ill in hospital over christmas, and she passed away yesterday. I'm so glad that I was with her. I'm in total shock, it doesn't seem real. I now have a wedding in about 8 weeks? I just can't do it all without my nan there, how will I be able to enjoy the day?
I've spent the day sorting out my uni application, as I know she wanted me to finish my course that left 2 years ago. I keep thinking 'I'll ring nan' and realise I can't.
Sorry for rambling but I'm stuck in this flat on my own, OH has gone to work and I'm snowed in, can't even walk to the shop.