Is that ok? No need to read or reply really.
I'm a sleepwalker, always have been. When I was younger it was really bad; we're talking episodes of once a week or once a fortnight if I was lucky. The doctor said I would grow out of it. Well, last week I turned 25 and I am still waiting. I have done really frightening things like putting the plug in the bath and turning the taps on before going back to bed. I have walked out the front door on more than one occasion and once even got into my car.
Anyway, I can laugh about it. Some of the things I do are funny. But on Monday night I had an episode that has stayed with me and really scared me. It wasn't even so much of a sleepwalking thing as such, almost more of an hallucination. Myself and my OH have worked out that when I am asleep I cannot tell the time so if he is unsure of if I am awake or not, he'll ask me what the time is. Well, on Monday night I knew what the time was. I am also normally quite incoherant during sleepwalking (and sometimes during the day too!! ?) but if anyone had asked me what I was doing I know I would have been able to be quite clear about my actions. I also was scared to go back to sleep when normally I will 'come to' a little, realise I am sleepwalking and go back to sleep.
I don't know why but this time it has really affected me. I don't want to be a sleepwalker anymore. It leaves me so very tired the next day and last night I was scared to go back to sleep in case I did it again. It sounds stupid written down actually but if you are a fellow sleepwalker you'd understand the fright and confusion of it as during an episode, no one appears to understand you and I can never communicate what I want / need to.
Anyway, sorry it turned out to be such a long ramble. I'm stuck at work feeling tired from two days disturbed sleep and am therefore a little emotional. I know I'm overreacting to it but I've had enough now!
If you read this all through then well done - I'm impressed!!