Hi everyone. I'm planning on getting married within the next two years, but haven't even begun planning because I just know there will be a lot of drama where my Dad is concerned.
My Dad and I aren't close. He's been a part of my life off and on and I feel he's never been there for me. He's never provided for me financially, or emotionally and he's caused a lot of distress to myself and my Mum my whole life. If he were to attend my wedding, it would be as a guest only. I don't want him to walk me down the aisle or give a speech.
I would love for my Mum to walk me down the aisle. We are incredibly close and she raised me. I would also love for my (ex) Step Dad to give a speech, as we are also close and I see him more as a father figure.
However, when the idea of my Mum walking me down the aisle was brought up with him a few weeks back, he said he would kill himself if he weren't the one to walk me down the aisle. (He was extremely drunk at the time). I didn't even mention the part about him not giving a speech. I didn't respond, and it's never been brought up since.
Ever since I have been on tenterhooks and can't bring myself around to start wedding planning. Even if he accepts my terms and attends the wedding as a guest, I know I will be constantly on edge and looking over my shoulder to see how he's behaving on the day.
My Dad's behaviour can be extremely unpredictable (he has an alcohol dependency issue), and I can't imagine fully relaxing during the day if he's there. I am absolutely dreading having a conversation with him about this because I know there will be a big blowout and possibly us cutting ties altogether.
I know every family has its own issues, but I was just curious to see if anyone has been in the same boat regarding their Dad? Also, any advice on how to handle things would be much appreciated.