The main thing that is upsetting me is how many people on my end aren’t able to attend, even though I sent the save the dates almost two years ago. The main reason I wanted to wait until Covid restrictions were “done” was so I could celebrate with lots of friends and meaningful people from my life. There was also quite a bit of family pressure to go for a big wedding and invite all the relatives etc.
However, most of my school friends and college friends have ended up declining - they’ve all been extremely apologetic and do have good reasons, and I did know this would be a risk (they nearly all live abroad and so it’s a combo of childcare/not getting time off/cost/etc). But it really saddens and somewhat disappoints me that they won’t be there. I’d also invited a number of friends from post college who are local and who basically all accepted and kept telling me how excited they were - but then a few abruptly changed their response and declined over email with vague reasons right before the deadline, and that just felt kind of like a slap in the face. My relatives have all got into some entirety separate family spat and so have almost all universally declined too so that they don’t have to be in the same room.
My fiancé - who was the one who initially didn’t want a large wedding as he’s quite shy - now has an enormous number of friends, family friends and relatives coming from all over. Literally maybe one elderly relative has declined and that’s it. I’ve been doing all the planning so at this stage I’m basically planning a wedding that’s about 10-20 guests for me and 100 for him.
I honestly just feel like it’s upsetting and embarrassing for me, that everyone will notice how few of my own guests I have, and I really wish I didn’t have to do it, but the costs of changing anything at this stage would be prohibitive. Has anyone been in the same situation and was it ok? :/