Unsure what to do

I got engaged 5 months ago and I think in that time I have been happy once (the day I got engaged)


My parents are so awkward, neither are interested in my wedding, my father doesn’t like my fiancé and my mother told me yesterday she thinks that I’m trying to keep up with the joneses -which for anyone that knows me, isn’t true, I’ve never been 1 to follow the crowd.
When I asked her why she said because of where its being held and how much money we are spending. Her exact words to me were
“Well, I just think if you really wanted to marry him you would, it wouldn’t be about this big venue. You would just get married and have a party so everyone can come……..I just think you have to compete with all your mates”
I understand where this comment came from, a long long time ago when all my friends were getting married and my cousin between **** I made a comment roughly on the lines of that "I hope all my friends show up for me when it's my turn cos I've been to everything"
At the time I said this I was single and I was travelling all over the world to celebrate my friends' happiness and love. I never really meant what I said I was just talking.
Now I'm engaged I'm very much aware that now most of my friends have 2-3 kids they won't be able to make my wedding and that's sad but I fully understand that. I'm late to getting married and we are not having kids at the wedding.
I am hurt by my parents' whole behaviour.
I now feel like I’m doing everything wrong. They are both making this whole experience so sad for me. They have already told me they are not helping as they don’t agree with how I’m doing it which I am fine with however I would still like for my parents to be excited for me instead of just doom and gloom.
I feel like I have waited sooo long for this as I will be an older bride, I will be 41 by the time I get married, and not one of my parents is bothered.
All I seem to be doing is crying
I am unsure what I should do. I’m second-guessing myself, feeling like I am letting everyone down. I’m sitting here wondering why everything I’m doing is so difficult for them to enjoy.
Super sad 2024 bride to be